here i am sitting in between liana n fatimah..bugging me too update update update. *krik krik*
we r actualli suppose to do sum discussion lah actuali. but we r so doin our own things. hehehe.
note to fatimah n liana.. oiii buat project oiiii. *look left look right* bukann blogg or msnn oii. hehe
*if i had juz 1 more dae i wld tell u hw much dat i missed u since u've been away*
-LiNNie-
Ever felt that the butterfly feelings you used to have seemingly now slowly began to vanish together with time and you began to wonder why it was not like it was before?
Ever felt that your patience then somehow turn into sacarsm now even if you tried so hard to hold it all in?
Ever felt that you've been pushed down by all the other priorites he have in life.
Ever felt so useless, and began to wonder if you are really worth it for him.
Ever felt why?
Ever felt that you just want to give up, but it's just so hard to let go.
Ever wonder if it's still love, or just a crave of someone being there for you?
Ever felt that you want so badly to make it work, but nothing you do seem right for him?
Ever felt that life's so unfair that everyone else were happier than you are?
Ever felt so sick, when that one person you expect to cheer you up just don't turn up, but everyone else around you seemed to be there to care for you?
Ever felt you want so badly to cry, but you just hold back so that he won't know you're hurting?
Ever felt that suddenly you have noone to talk to?
- coz he's just not there. he just don't seem to care.
- you just want to make it so right. you just so badly want to fix it. coming so close yet so far. you so want to give up, but you're heart kept reminding you to hang in there. you just want to make it right. see him light up when he sees you. you just want it so badly. you just want him so badly to be what he used to be. you just want to fall in love all over again with him.
... and so you hope, and so you pray.
Oh god, give him back to me. What he used to be. I'll give you all the strength I have to make it work, but plz, show me the way. I'll accept and take it in my stride, however i'm feeling now, I'm willing to take it all in and believe that the bad feelings I had before for him were all just delusions but please.. If he's the one for me, let me see through what he really is, coz if he isn't, allow me to let him go - coz I love him so - So deeply. Show me the way. Plz. Show me the way.
And so.. I shall surrender all to you. Coz maybe, possibly ..
p.s. Anyway Linnie. Hang in there okay.
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Haiz. Damn I miss my hair. And my longer fringey-bangs. *sob* It's 0300Am in the morning and as usual, I'm still up - and I feel fat.
At this point, though I'm honestly extremely contented with my life, I believe at this junction I'm ready to crumble by my own confusion. Haiz, Liana Liana Liana... I really need some cafe therapy seh. Zooorahhhhh, where are you??
Let's not get into this - I believe to date only Elmyra and Linnie knows. But I'm sad leh, like they're going through a rough patch too, and just didn't feel like going into much detail with my senseless upsetting.
Yah anyhoo, I came across this image from a friend's blog - Hehe. Jannah, sorry for snatching this. Ahakz, just that for some reason it hit me a bit when I read it ..
I don't know how much of this i believe la. I mean i never really did think of all guys being the same, but yah, it amuses me for some reason maybe coz subconciously i immediately started to consider the fact that every guy for some reason hurt me in a way during a relationship.
That is subconsiously - Consiously, I always believed everything happens for a reason. This philosophy I always kept in mind..
The things that does not kill you will make you stronger.
To think of it now, I never blamed anyone. In fact, past experience forced me to grow up and I'm glad it happened. I dealt with it and I know I wouldn't go back. Though I hate to admit it, those from my past actually taught me a lot. They taught me that I'm strong, even without them. And the fact that I won't fall, even if they try to break me. I don't hate them. but I don't love them either.
To those who initiated a friendship at the end. Thank you. I feel truly truly blessed.
I wonder if anyone hates me now.
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- LianaLin -
Angel Zealously hmmz kinda love the word but then again im not lousy but clumsy wakaka..well the fact are the 3 bloggers here are clumsy...lol padahal tingkat 3 pun blh siak lol.
ok back on track, im down with flu!!! darn it.. i hate it. Thanks to my mom who bring home the flu bug. Yikes now my head are heavy and my nose are behaving like an irritatin bitch **snif snif** So everyone please pray for me to get better soon. [[stop here and pray for me before proceeding 30secs starting from now..]]
Speaking of irritating bitch i just want to share something to all. First up, huggies to LiNNie because she is facing a rough patch of her life right now. Well LiNNie have alot of patience and be smart to make decision alrite. Remember make descision that will be better for you own future. Due to LiNNie event i just want to share sumtink. [[dari tadi aku nak share tk share2 hehe snif snif]]
I hate the fact is when the ex-gf(<--irritating bitch) still disturbing her ex-bf life. Especially when she got to know that her ex-bf of hers is attached again. There she is being a BIG KEPO sniffing her ex-bf private life. This kind of girls just dont get enough. First she will start to call her ex-bf and ask hows life and yada yada..den ask to meet as 'FRIENDS TERM' just to catch up time..den accidently hold his hand and suddenly kiss..god..how many times i have heard this story..and im sure you guys heard it too..rite? rite....Why cant this girls just get her own life and fixed their own life rather den being a BIG FAT busybody. Then there will be a big fight within her ex-bf and his new gf. See how much trouble this irritating bitch cause. The fact is she love to see her ex-bf suffers. Haiz please lah k stop doing all this. it just not profitable. Just alittle advice when you break up with someone just let him / her go. MOVE ON with your own life dun create more trouble. What is past is THE PAST. By the way this is also refer to men. Dont be an irritating maggots!!(<--the guy term lah the ex-bf)..
Yes i noe life after break up is difficult. You have to patch all your shattered heart altogether till it heal den it time to be love again. OR mayb not you just give up on love and shut everythink. But this is part and parcel of life. Life is not fair. Clear cut it is unfair. Still life have to move on..time will not stop for you. So in the end it is all up to you to make changes in your life. So i hope make full use of you life before you leave this world.
To all people who having trouble with their 'ex's and are attached.. Please ignore them if they call you up and please don't meet them. You have a new life now and especially you have a new partner that should be better then the previous one. Just make every relationship of yours a good one. One more thing, if just because you guys are fighting due to your 'ex's please stop fighting with each other. The fact is both of u should fight with the 'ex's they might be the root to the problems. Think rational not childish. Now as we are in the young adult world please beahve like one.
As to end this, this entry is about all the things i heard around my friends. So i just summarise it up. i just hated to hear that especially girls are doing this terrible things. So remember what goes around comes around it is called karma. Stop it before you yourself get to taste it.(referring to the bitches and the maggots)..
ps: this entry is not about LiNNie :D
Signing off
Elmyra Azaliah
i noe i noe, waking up as early as 7am was neva our routine. esp during de long long skool holidaes. had to drag our ass to skool for de briefin b4 de semester starts. haiyahh. i used to keep whinning how boring de skool hols gonna be, n now, i'm whinnin skool gonna start realli soon. *yikes*
took de lift to level4 so dat we wont hv to take de stairs to de LT. but dese ppl (me, liana n fatimah), sufferin frm our *murnin-slengerness* confidently stepped out at level3. happily chatt, n finlly realize dat we r on de wrong level. *sheeshhh* still can ask "ehh tingkat 4 kann?"
haha. n dgn sardine-nyer lahh, we pressed de lift button wen itz bout to close. haiyooh.ppl.
n soo...draggy briefing...wif mr.emo joined us on de seats of de same row. haiz.. i'm totally crossed out by him. hahaha. wat de hell. instead of stayin till de end of de briefing, which was suppose to be at 1pm, we bout 45mins earlier. for a simple reason: flat jugak pantat aku. wakaka. *pemalas tol*
bored, took bus no8, a long journey to bus interchange. i think, we dun even noe why we took dat bus. lol. as usual lahh ehh, *snap snap* we took sum pics. sempat..lol..
.ok enjoy.
.itz a without miss in de toilet.
.sneak into de frame fadzlin!.hehehe.
.hehz.crop crop fatimah!.
.liana, r u smilin like mrs.emo?. *evil luff*
.fatimah fadzlin ? fadzlin fatimah ?.
.liana n fatimah.
.hmmmmmm.
.CIYU!!!.*hahaha rolls on de floor*
.cehh rambot baruuuuuu sehhhh.
*do i realli matter to u ?*
-LiNNie-
Haha. This is super de duper cool la. You should check out the website. Click on the above image to get to the link. Ahakz. Have fun - and please, do share yall !
Toodlez~
- LianaLin -
Ola..*BIG SIMLE* first up i got my hair done!! finally. Now my hair is nice, neat and tidy because it had been rebonded only for $78. Weee...but i still want alot of fringe!! but again this is the 2nd hairstylist refused to give me fringe or banks. Haizz...Liana cut for me k but cut properly because my hair already nice. wakakaka juz joking. I still look the same back den wen i rebonded my hair(1yr ago).
Anyway, i also want to say thanks to this 2 ladies liana and yam. it was because they also went for a haircut but it turned out to be disasterous blamed that dumb auntie!!!! so mad at her. Auntie said "i feel my hand stupid becoz i dun hav my scissors and dis is nt mine" while cutting liana's hair..SNAP!! she cut the whole length of liana hair and leave it only barely 10cm of hair all around her top head. And she really layer her hair like HELL i tell you. Liana, sorie about that because i forced you to cut on that day but now u still look cute little lantern ciyu. lol.. hair will grow so by hari raya puase it will be ok. //PRAYING HARD\\heehee// After that dumb auntie is done with liana's hair, it now yam turns to cut hers. She was having 2nd thought to cut her hair but still she give it a try. So she just asked for a trimmed v-shaped at the back yet again she SNAP her hair but managed to get a v-shaped but it was badly short!!!..arghhh dumb auntie!!!
While they grumble and grumble about their hair infront of the mirror its my turned then. I was praying hard not to let the auntie touch my hair and yess sum1 by the named of ken did my hair overall he did a good job. My fringe is fine but i thought i want to try sumtink different but i didnt get it. So yar i still look the same with better hair management. *grin* throughout that 5hrs of rebonding my hair i slept throughout. So i was wide awake when he started to use the iron clip because i am fear of he burning my ears or my scalp. But he ace that area. Such a relief.
So here are our new hairdo from the Front lah...heehee
Liana is pisssed wif her hair
Yam is also having the pissed faced
As for me, im hapi with it sumhow
And next recently, i watched stayed alive. Oh man that movie is superb. This is what i called thriller movie. Thumbs up to the one created this movie. I most recommend this movie for all the movie goers to catch it. It is a must see movie. All i can say it was AMAZING.
"Bulan2 puase ni kan mane ade hantu, suma kene jail so nak tgk cerita2 hantu tgk skrang jadik mlm balik tk takot...wakakaka."
ok next stop it will be...erm ohyah congrats to liana, she finally passed her ECAD paper after the 4th try (ooppss heehee). But im abit worried about budd though. He was blown off badly for the result he got. Today, is just a big messed i guessed. Again im not with him when he needed me. But den again he let me meet the clowns. Or mayb just waiting for me to say "is oklah i accompany you." Gosh!! how can i be so straight and stupid. Im so angry with myself nevertheless budd was trying hard to hide his sorrows. I feel so bad. Argghh but that budd didnt know how to hide things so yar to void fighting i just shorten the conversation because i cant do anything. Im sorry budd. i dont want to start a fight with you. Overall, just now meeting the clowns was irritatings and funn plus we took alot of picz..btw all of us ended wear black and teaching liana younger sis Pri.6 maths @ starbux. BTW fadzlin i saw that sum1 working today..hehehe you know who i referring too.. back hm nearly 12mn. hekhek..
The blackies chilled @theflagpole
doing stupid posed using my k700i to take picx..lol my hp is good!!..haha
Lastly..Just to inform the gurls, i dun think i can buka puase wif you guys because im really short of cash. Today outing also was from the leftover money i had that i been saving up. So yar..nevertheless you guyz can go ahead wif the plans ok. Gonna MiSS YOU GUYZ. I declare myself offically broke. *sob sob* T_T
-To Hanisah Good Luck With Your PSLE do your very best XD
- To Fadzlin *huggies* for you..Take care alrite. I might nt noe what you are facing but by your msn nick i figure it out. So always remember your birthday is cuming hekhek and we always be there for u..xD ((mane sock aku hah??)) lolz
-To budd Im sorry..
signing off
Elmyra Azaliah
Hmmm. Hmmm. It is 0317AM in the morning. So close to sahur yet I'm clearly still wide awake. Okay, let's start ..
Yah. Saosin's new album - It is a little disappointing now that I managed to listen to all the tracks. It wasn't like it was before la. The original vocalist was still the best, yah - but then again, it was not that bad. Some tracks were really uber cool, though most of all the other songs seemed to have similar tune to it. Nevertheless, I gotta admit - I'm still a fan.
Okay. Next.
Geez, I feel like a machine now. Okay, ahakz. I've been wanting to address on a certain issue for quite sometime yet I never actually manage to find the right words to define myself everytime i get hyped up to blog about it
- if you get what I mean.
Hmm. I realized the impact of writing when I first started blogging. The way we write would either influence others, or bite straight back at our asses. Haha. Yah, you'd either make readers smile, or nauseate them right?
Haha. But at the end of the day, writing always calls for judgement. Which is a good thing I believe ( if you look at it in another angle ) . It makes the world interesting - not all that monotonous. There's a saying -
All the world's a stage.
Noone is genuinely real.. really. Everyone strive to be the best, look the best, act the best in front of everyone else. C'mon ask yourself.. are you really all that perfect?
With that said - Even in writing, people potray what they want to be by the way they lay it all in words - thus I conclude writing do make people hypocritical too. But isn't everyone one? Noone's an angel. That's why all I'm trying to convey is
I'm not trying to make a direct statement to anyone in particular ahakz but since the last time I wrote about blogging, I'd pretty much brought down the way some bloggers potray themselves, haha so yah, I think it'd only make me feel better if i do them some justice - not saying I don't mean what I wrote the last time.
Afterall, I'm a blogger myself.
Uh. Okay. Yah. Let's get to a topic closer to home.
Fauzi just got a bike. Jealous nyer - Shesssh! I'm now dying to get my car license - I can already taste it la. Other people's achievement could really make me feel so fidgety to strive for mine. Arghhh. How I wish I could shout that life's not fair - Right Liana! alahhhh...
Eurghh. Dah la. Change topic again la.
Yah. Anyhoooo. Yesterday, went to Starbucks after a long term craving for my caramel java chip frapuccino with my two sisters * .. yumziezz * It was w/out a doubt heavenly la but the downside was.. after a long time not indulging in my coffee, i got pretty high from my grande size caffaeine alone! Horrible seh. My mind completely got hung up for a while and started spinning and all - it was really just a weird feeling la. Hmm. Haha. yah. but that was not the point actually. My point is ahakz... Seth is still working there la! hehe.
Elmyra n Linnie, wah weeeeee. Haha. I know you're
* bish-ing * me right now... =P Nice feeling to see him there again though - and pretty sweet. He remembered my orders and all. wakakaka * evil smirk * - oki stop it Liana!
* ..still smiling evil-ly* lalaa laaa..
Ahakz. Done. I can hear my mum's alarm clock ringing already. Sahur here I come. * hungry *
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