Triplicate Femme

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Thursday, April 09, 2009

I hate it wen i feel intimidated or inferior towards sum1 hu is clever or maybe sum1 hu made me feel i'm stupid.

As tho, i'm too stupid dat i'm not up to standard as a Degree student.

You may see me as lazy, coz i always spend time outside.

You may see me as a failure, coz i can't even pull tru 2 module, n i have to repeat dem.

You may see me as a "i-cant-be-bothered", yes, i may show dat attitude, but wen i noe i need to do smth, i will do it. n i'll make sure i do it. just dat ii dun go ard showing ppl how stressed i am.

Doesnt mean i dun show it, means i dun feel/show any importance towards my studies.

I've been hvin bad weeks. I've venting it out on my boyfren. At times, it gets too much for me to handle everything. de emotions. de stress. It feels like a "balloon is filled with water, too heavy to carry de weight of de water. & u can see/feel itz gonna burst anytime, spilling all de water".

DAT IS HOW I AM FEELING RITE NOW.

You dun have to give me dose unneccessary intimidation feeling. I dun need dat.

N please, i still feel as tho ur "indirectly" blaming me for wat happen. Get over it laa. Cmon.

Thanks to Muhd.Halifi, for being dere.
For being de lite wen i was in darkness.
For being de smile to my face wen i was weeping.
For being ever so patient over dese few wks.

Thank you for just giving me non-stop advices & unconditional love.

I will remember ur advice..
"There are 3 types of ppl, 1 with low confidence, with confidence and 1 hu is over confident"
"Be confident by keeping ur morale high"

Much love to u.

& I just hope i can meet my triplicates, darlings & etp lepak kakis very soon.
Itz been so lonng....

-LiNNie-

Pinky_Brain_Elymra _ b l o g g e d _ @ 10:21 PM |

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Pinky LianaLin

ThirdTeen November 1987

Can't run away from:
Caramel Frap with Java Chips
Caramel drizzle and chocolate Powder, and spoon
Baby Johnson's Hair Oil

Brain LiNNie

NineTeen October 1986

Can't run away from:
My Pretty Boy
Donuts Yummmmy!
BSB-indon Bands

Elmyra Azaliah

Seventh May 1984

Can't run away from:
PhotoShop-Ing
Banana Cream with Java Chips
MapleSea