A Sober Story from my side - My turn
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
I was reading both of your entries late at night yesterday and yes you girls make me cried till i fall asleep. While reading, all the painful moments in my life all due to broken heart just keep flashing in my head. Man! how i hate it so much to be in that stage! tell me about it. And surprise i still do.
Every night i have to suffer to make my brain stop thinking about him over and over again, cry till my eyes sore and my head hurts till i fall asleep. Once the sun came up, over and over again i need to pick myself up every tiny pieces of me to place a smile and saying to myself infront of the mirror "Today is going to be better day!". And yet as usual at the back of my brain i knew that the pain is still dere, the pain of a broken heart.
So finally a day came whereby the phone rings and it is the ringtone that was personally set for him was ringing.. the heart jumps and the eyes twinkle and yet i pretended to be normal while picking up the call at the same time was asking alot of question and one common question "Why did he call?" Once the voice you have been prolong to hear finally came true.. and yes a little bit of missing him just being cure. And he just want to know how you are doing and all.. generally the answer is i am doing fine and normal. Hell no that i am going to say how sober i am and blah2.. and the phonecall is over, And i ask myself will there be another one?
Ironically yes, and weirdly we met and bam! things just go back like before, holding hands, hugging and kssing and yet both of us knew that the truth is the relationship is over and why in the world we are doing this. But yet no one actually stop. Simply say that we missed each other thats why.
When the day is all done, then comes all the dissapointment come running by as you knew dat life still go on and he will not come back to you. So i make my way home alone crying and felt angry with myself for being stupid and just cant deal with my own emotions.
So dats me.. making mistakes over and over again
keep finding positive thoughts so as to kill this pain that im feeling.
So Fadzlin, if u need a shoulder to cry on.. you know who to find.. we will always be dere for you..
You able to go through this and you will definitly fall in love again. And dat guy will be better then the previous one.
Liana im glad thing works out for you and baiscally im happy for you. Anw dont work to hard alrite..
Tommie u better dont break her heart twice and i will break every inch of your limps!
WE are strong ladies so things will work out fine and the MR RIGHT will come by soon .. explore the world and dont give up.
Love you ladies and see you soon!
Liana your pressie waiting for you. :P
Love
Azaliah
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