Ever felt that at a point - clinging on to someone feels so tiring, but letting go just don't seem to make any sense?
Ever felt that the butterfly feelings you used to have seemingly now slowly began to vanish together with time and you began to wonder why it was not like it was before?
Ever felt that your patience then somehow turn into sacarsm now even if you tried so hard to hold it all in?
Ever felt that you've been pushed down by all the other priorites he have in life.
Ever felt so useless, and began to wonder if you are really worth it for him.
Ever felt why?
Ever felt that you just want to give up, but it's just so hard to let go.
Ever wonder if it's still love, or just a crave of someone being there for you?
Ever felt that you want so badly to make it work, but nothing you do seem right for him?
Ever felt that life's so unfair that everyone else were happier than you are?
Ever felt so sick, when that one person you expect to cheer you up just don't turn up, but everyone else around you seemed to be there to care for you?
Ever felt you want so badly to cry, but you just hold back so that he won't know you're hurting?
Ever felt that suddenly you have noone to talk to?
- coz he's just not there. he just don't seem to care.
- you just want to make it so right. you just so badly want to fix it. coming so close yet so far. you so want to give up, but you're heart kept reminding you to hang in there. you just want to make it right. see him light up when he sees you. you just want it so badly. you just want him so badly to be what he used to be. you just want to fall in love all over again with him.
... and so you hope, and so you pray.
Oh god, give him back to me. What he used to be. I'll give you all the strength I have to make it work, but plz, show me the way. I'll accept and take it in my stride, however i'm feeling now, I'm willing to take it all in and believe that the bad feelings I had before for him were all just delusions but please.. If he's the one for me, let me see through what he really is, coz if he isn't, allow me to let him go - coz I love him so - So deeply. Show me the way. Plz. Show me the way.
And so.. I shall surrender all to you. Coz maybe, possibly ..
.. it's just a bad day.
p.s. Anyway Linnie. Hang in there okay.
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- LianaLin -
Pinky_Brain_Elymra _ b l o g g e d _ @ 3:23 AM |
